I Used to Binge-Eat


“For nothing is hidden that will not be made manifest, nor is anything secret that will not be known and come to light.” Luke 8:19

Yesterday I reconnected with one of my accountability partners, and we both shared how we were slipping on maintaining our boundaries. Why? Because we stopped being accountable. We used to check in with each other daily, but we allowed life to get in the way.

Accountability takes work. It can be humbling. It can stir up a spirit of rebellion in you because you might not necessarily want to be accountable. However, accountability strengthens us when we’re feeling weak and gives us the motivation and encouragement to keep on going when we don’t feel like it.

In the past, I used to binge-eat while I helping others to get healthy. No one knew my secret because I kept it from everyone. And as long as I was not accountable to anyone, I continued to wear the mask of ‘having it all together.’

It’s possible to be saved and filled with the spirit and still live in darkness. Why? Because without accountability, it’s easy to justify why we do what we do. We sometimes default to saying things like, “God knows my heart,” when deep down inside we know that we say it as an excuse to continue eating.

In our society, it’s so easy to do because we value illusion or perception more than truth and reality, but it’s these false masks that keep us bound and broken.

To be successful on your health and weight releasing journey, you will need to take off the mask and get transparent with yourself, others, and God.

Ask yourself:

1. Are you being honest with yourself?

Face the truth! One of our most powerful insights in our Healthy by Design program is, ‘That God will only cover what you’re willing to uncover.’ It’s time to tell yourself the truth.

2. Have you shared your health journey with anyone else?

Vulnerability and accountability are crucial on this journey. The enemy’s plan is to divide and conquer. We are stronger when we can ‘bear each others burdens’  and support each other on this health journey.

3. Have you invited God into your journey?

While God knows the secrets of our heart already, we will not receive the fullness of his love and His help until we willingly open up to Him. He is patiently waiting for you and I to reveal our true selves to Him. He tells us that it’s safe to take off the mask and be transparent before Him. He is calling us to come to Him so he can love us, heal us, and set us free.

It’s time for us to take off our masks and be real with ourselves, with others, and with God. The process will take some time, establishing accountability with someone else will help.

Do you have an accountability partner or group that you can be real and transparent with? If not, begin to think about who you can ask to support you.



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